Good morning and Happy Sabbath friends! I sincerely apologize for not posting last Sabbath. If I am being honest, I have been going through a very negative mindset and have been taking time to reflect in God’s Word and His love to remind myself that He is bigger than the negative thoughts that are flooding in my mind. I am sure some of you may relate to that. Just because we are a Child of God, does not mean that we won’t face difficult times. During these difficult times is when we should depend on God the most. This post is going to be more on the vulnerable side as that is where I am at right now, and I love expressing myself and God’s love and truth through my writing, so how would this be a biblegalll blog without doing so?

To give some background, I am currently in a period of healing for my life. For the past few years, I have really struggled with my faith and my identity in Christ. I never stopped loving Jesus, but I definitely was not prioritizing Him first in my life for a while, and it really broke me down in full honesty. The reason I am writing about this is not to receive pity, but give encouragement and comfort for those who may have went through a similar situation, or are currently in this situation. My posts are always meant to only encourage, comfort, and share the Good News of Jesus Christ, and that is my goal with this post.

This post is going to be centered around relationships with not just others, but with Jesus as well. I was in a situation where I was deeply in love with someone, and my biggest downfall was that I started to put this person above Jesus. I viewed this person as my light, my rock, and the person that gave me life. My present day self can confidently tell you, that the mindset I had about this person, was not healthy. Jesus should be our light. Jesus should be our rock. Jesus should be the one that gives us eternal life! It is stated in the Ten Commandments a.k.a “The Happiness Rules”, “You shall have no other gods before me” (Exodus 20:3 NIV). During the Old Testament days, idols would be considered gods made out of gold/silver that man created, wealth, the sun, etc. and that can apply to our modern day lives! Anything can be considered a god, or an idol if you are putting it above God. In full transparency, I was for a time. I fell so deeply in love that I viewed this person as perfect. I depended on them, and would’ve sacrificed anything to have them. That is not healthy by any means, as God should be first in your life if you are truly faithful to Him. “But seek first the kingdom of God and His righteousness, and all these things shall be added to you” (Matthew 6:33 NKJV). If you are reading this right now, and you have went through something similar, I feel for you. I understand. I have been there. Because of how far away I felt from God, I truly forgot who I was. I didn’t feel good enough for this person, and that is what led to me sacrificing so much. Isn’t that sad? But in the Word of God it states, “And he arose and came to his father. But when he was still a great way off, his father saw him and had compassion, and ran and fell on his neck and kissed him. And the son said to him, ‘Father, I have sinned against heaven and in your sight, and am no longer worthy to be called your son.’ But the father said to his servants, ‘Bring out the best robe and put it on him, and put a ring on his hand and sandals on his feet. And bring the fatted calf here and kill it, and let us eat and be merry; for this my son was dead and is alive again; he was lost and is found.’ And they began to be merry” (Luke 15:20-24 NKJV). YOU ARE NEVER TOO FAR GONE.

God did end up taking this person out of my life. Now keep in mind, I thought this person was my world, and I remember, one day I started hearing God’s voice again. It was faint, but I heard Him. It was a slow process, but I started to slowly distance myself from this person, and I felt my heart yearn for God once again. I started to slowly feel that fire that I once felt for God start to creep back in, and the idolizing mindset I had for this other person started to slowly fade away. I started to see things through Jesus’ lenses. Then, on one random day, God removed this person from my life. It was in the most perfect orchestrated manner, and when I tell you, I felt a peace overwhelm me because I knew this was from God. If this person truly was from God, He would not have taken them away. What God has for you, will stay. As it states, “Love never fails. But where there are prophecies, they will cease; where there are tongues, they will be stilled; where there is knowledge, it will pass away” (1 Corinthians 13:8 NIV). If this was truly love with this person, God would have never taken them away. I will be honest, as I am writing this, I do feel broken and sad because for the longest time, this person was my world, and now they are gone. But I can confidently say that because I know God did this because I was not strong enough to remove this person from my life, I feel peace with what happened. I may be hurting, and feeling broken, but I also feel a closeness and peacefulness with Jesus. “…and the peace of God, which surpasses all understanding, will guard your hearts and minds through Christ Jesus” (Philippians 4:7 NKJV). In full transparency, I do wake up and feel a missing void in my heart with this person being gone, but I realize now that God is the ONLY ONE who can truly fill that void.

Healing is never linear, and it is never easy. If you are going through a break up whether from a relationship, friendship, etc. please know, you are not alone. I am right where you are, and I will not only be praying for the healing of my heart, but for yours as well. We are going to get through this heartbreak together with God by our sides. Going forward, we are going to keep God first in our lives. No man, and no woman will tear us away from our Heavenly Father again. We will put no human being above our loving Christ Jesus again. God should be number one in our lives, in our hearts, and in our minds. Instead of allowing the negative thoughts and mindset overwhelm you during this period of heartbreak and healing, we will instead fill our thoughts and minds with the TRUTH and LOVE of Christ Jesus. Give it ALL to Him. He wants to hear it ALL. You may feel broken. You may feel dirty. You may not feel worthy. But God wants to hear it! He can handle it!

“Whatever you have learned or received or heard from Me, or seen in Me–put it into practice. And the God of peace will be with you” (Philippians 4:9 NIV). View the past as a LESSON. Forgive yourself for the past, and LEARN from it. You need to choose to move on from this person, and when you choose to do so, and you give it to God, He will transform you! You will only grow stronger and better from the situation God took you away from. He took you away from this person, and/or situation for a reason. Trust in Him, and allow Him to transform your life, heart, and mind. “Trust in the Lord with all your heart, and lean not on your own understanding” (Proverbs 3:5 NKJV).

I hope this brings you comfort during this season you may be currently going through. Please know you are not alone. I am right where you are at as I am healing too, and Jesus is right there with you all the day long. “Fear not, for I am with you; be not dismayed, for I am your God. I will strengthen you, yes, I will help you, I will uphold you with My righteous right hand” (Isaiah 41:10 NKJV).

Here is a verse that has spoken to me during this time of healing, and it is something I want to uphold in my life for my future: “I have set the Lord always before me; because He is at my right hand I shall not be moved” (Psalms 16:8 NKJV). Going forward, I plan to always keep God as the center and first in my life, no matter the situation.

Amen.